Doesn't it just burn your !!!?

Not pointing fingers after this tragedy because I know family and friends are deeply grieving their loss of Robert A Hawkins, but enough is enough. I despise the rise of senseless shooting murder-suicides. I understand my depression but I hurt myself and never attack others. Where is the glory this young man was looking for? Is it really depression that drove him to kill? Where is the pay back for him against what happened to him if he kills himself. I understand that we can't understand the mind of the mentally ill, but I sure would appreciate your thoughts. This tragedy has me crying. It is like exploitation of mental illness. I would never hurt let alone kill anyone even in my darkest moments. I can't understand.